The day that i wish to come again.

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The day that i wish to come again is the day that my late's uncle had passed away.It's almost three months ago,but I can't still move on from that day.If I knew he will leave me forever,I will cancel a plan to go vacation with my friend and stay beside him until his last breath.But, who am I to question Allah's fate?It's already had be written and I must accept this no matter what.He had gone,and I should continue my life even my heart cant deny the emptiness .

I think this is my first lost in my family members,so it takes a lot of courages for me to build up my happiness again.In the same time,I'm very scared to prepare myself to face another lost in the future.Especially my grandparents who had past their 80 years old.I can't imagine how many days that I will keep myself alone to adapt the situation.I know that the age is not the certainty for someone to leave this world.Yet,like as usual,the more you get older,the more nearer to the death.

We just need a second to love someone but an entire life to forget the memories.That quote is totally true.All the memories that bring me to him make me cry every time it appeared in my mind.From the worst memories until the sweetest memories make me realise that I must appreciate it.Because I can never repeat it.It can't be the same anymore.

Pray for me.
Pray for my heart.
Please,help me :'(


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